08 Jan 06 - It’s been awhile since I last wrote some shit here. Now here’s a marked event on my calender… My cousin’s wedding. And the first time I’m getting someone a wedding gift outta gd will and graditute. Coz she helped me with my maths back in sec sch. So I’m really thankful for her. Abit on my cousin… She’s the 2nd daughter of my aunt, and abit quiet and v nice. She’s also those kinda gal who you can definitely bring home to let your mum see and 91.5% of the time your mum will nod and ask," So, when both of you getting married?" To tell you the truth, she has some qualities that I hope my dream gal will have. Eg. Consideration, pretty, soft spoken and intelligent. But er, let’s just say everyone will change with time…
So I went her house in the morning where it ain’t bright and sunny, more of like dark and groomy and extremely wet! And the worst thing is the Civil Defence Exercise. OMG!!! We din realise that it’s going on in Toa Payoh and we couldn’t take the train for nuts. Fuck it! So abit delay here and there and we finally reached our destination. Nothing much here, just waitin for her and her spouse to come back and go thru the tea ceremony. Then I passed her the present. It’s a photo album for her to keep sweet memories of that day. All 300 of it! And it’s a nice looking one ok? Not some cheap-ass shit from chinatown. And I’m the only GUY who gave her a wedding present. Sweet huh? Ya ya… And she said something like next time she’ll give me a present in return. That coment came as a gd will but with that, an image of cindy’s face just pop up in my mind. Her in that long black gown just appeared in my mind… It’s the only gown that I’ve seen her in and it’s one of the best things ever…
So comes the dinner at night at gd ol’ Swissotel. It’s at 1 of the ballrooms… A great place with fond memories. And I remb the piano, yes… the black piano, it’s still there after so damn long, since I was a kid. I almost had tears when I saw that. All that remains are nothing but a broken dream… Only a few will know. And maybe only 2 will ever remember. Or maybe now it’s only me? Oh man… I can only blame myself for letting someone so important go… Not that I wanted to but sometimes, letting someone go in hope that she’ll find someone better is a blessing? Still dunno whether the choice I made is a gd one rite now. Dunno whether she has actually found that someone and the last one. I hope she does and I hope that there’s someone better for me too. But sometimes, when I know that she’s sad and crying coz of some bastard/bitch, I really dun feel gd inside of me. But that’s the choice she made… So live with it, whatever becomes of her is no longer my concern. Or should I say someone wont want me to be concerned?
Fuck it la, back to the dinner… 1 thing abt chinese wedding dinners is that they never start on time. Coz some VIP will be late due to traffice jams, rain or the woman need more make up on her face. Obviously, we started late. Duh? A great 8 course dinner with video clips of the couple shown like every 3 dish being served. A nice concept though, kinda sweet to know that they actually started dating when they were in university which was like 4-5 years ago. I really admire those couple that can last for so long without the feeling of, "Sian ar, see you for so long liao" In today’s context, couples being together for more than 2 years is an achievement… Coz all guys just have sex in their heads and the women… I dunno wats going on in their head and I dun wanna bother myself in anymore women stuff…
It just applied to me that all brides are stunning on their wedding. I mean, they look really different and just beautiful. As what the emcee said, "Wa, last time look so nerd then now so beautiful liao. What happened? Got secret receipe isit? Can teach my girlfriend?" I’ve seen lotza brides and trust me, you’ll never get tired of looking at them not coz you’re some horny bastard but coz they are just beautiful. I think wedding gowns are just a gift from GOD. It’s perfect… At that moment, cindy’s face just pop up in my mind again. And this time, I’m sure my eyes were red. And I thought most of my emotions were put to rest and here I am with red eyes among my relatives… How wonderful, they will think I’m so happy for my cousin. Oh crap…
Ok ok so bye bye to all that came that night and I will get a wedding gift in like 6-7 years? Oh wat the hell.
–Marriage is where a man and a woman will spend their lives with each other through sickness and health, poverty and wealth and till death do they part.
