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I was reading Sandman and I came across this conversation which has such great meaning I decided to quote it here for reference.
"Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defenses, you build up a whole suit of armor, so that nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life…You give them a piece of you. They didn’t ask for it. They did something dumb one day, like kiss you or smile at you, and then your life isn’t your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so simple a phrase like ‘maybe we should be just friends’ or ‘how very perceptive’ turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It’s a soul-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. Nothing should be able to do that. Especially not love. I hate love."
–Rose Walker, in Sandman #65 "The Kindly Ones:9"
So there you have it, that’s what love is all about. It kinda sums everything up doesn’t it? Your life is just fine until one day someone comes along and you decide to give a piece of yourself to that person who in the first place did not ask for it… It sounds like you’re asking for it. Which unfortunately, is very true. So when things don’t work out please remember that you’re the one who asked for it in the first place. A harsh fact to accept but quite true to a certain extent.
As expected of a typical fan, you’ll buy the new album straight the day it’s released and of course you’ll buy ORIGINAL! Support them for their work and effort in stringing together a song because it ain’t ez putting a song together that can sound seamless.
I won’t reference to pop songs since those singers usually have people to produce their songs and all they need to do is sing well and look nice and beauitful while singing. But not all pop singers rely on other people to produce their songs, there are good singers/song-writers around. So kudos to them, you should also buy their records, ORIGINAL of course.
Back to Minutes to Midnight, it’s the new album by Linkin Park (LP) and it’s released today world wide and on the 15th in the US. So ppl outside US get to buy the album earlier. Yea! I’m quite surprised that LP finally use the F*** word in their new work. Because what made them unique is that they use angst in their songs without any profanities in their previous albums. So this may not fare too well with their fans who liked them because of their "clean"iness. Personally, I find the whole album extremely well done. The music has grown since Meteora.
I really like the usual hard rocking songs like Given Up, Bleed It Out, No More Sorrow. So far I find those 3 songs sound like what they usually do, pure hard rocking angst!
Then songs like Leave Out All The Rest and Shadow of The Day is quite sentimental. What I’ve Done and The Little Things Give You Away touched on more serious issues. The MV for What I’ve Done is really meaningful and shows the problems the world is facing. When you watch the MV, you’ll feel like it’s humankind singing "what have we done?" The latter have some influences to the Hurricane Katrina that wiped out New Orleans.
Overall, I feel LP has progressed substantially. Again, this is only my views and it does not represent the views of all Linkin Park’s fans. I hope their fans can grow up to the music as well because it’s a pity if you cant relate to them.
–When my time comes, forget the wrong that I’ve done and help me leave behind some reasons to be missed.
So what do men see in the women they r pursuing? Beauty? Brains? Character? Everyone’s needs are different, but if needs differ from time to time, won’t it be a nightmare to change partner from time to time? Apparently some ppl do that. If your partner just cannot adapt to your change of needs, what will you do by then? Ditch her? Try to live with it? Get her to compromise?
There is of course no specific solution to this. Everyone has their own ways to deal with such. And my blog certainly don’t provide the answers to that. Different aliments require different remedies. So what happens if you just stay the same? Won’t you just remind the same and not progress while your peers are moving on. Quite a headache if you ask me.
I was just thinking of the problems above recently and realised it’s important to have someone who understand and respect your goals and needs. Even if your goals are not desirable, your partner should still respect them because they love you for who you truely are. People do attempt to change certain traits and characters of their partner, in the hope of them becoming a more desirable person. However, it’s a forgotten fact that the more you try to change a human’s mindset and school of thought, the more resistance you’ll face?
It’s interesting that despite this fact, people still attempt to change their partners in the hope that some miracle will happen. I wonder if this is the case of day dreaming for the best without thinking about the worse case scenario.
So after looking at this complicated thing called men-women love relationship, I kinda gather this funny thought.
Singlehood = Free Market (anyone can just meet anyone and interact with them)
Dating relationship = Unpredictable stock market volatility
Long term relationship = Long term investment
Marriage = Long term investment plus dividends
Just a simple and funny way to describe the stages of a man-woman relationship. Not meant to offend anyone though.
Looking
back at my past and looking at myself now, I feel there has been a
significant change of perspective in many aspects of my life.
When
I had a gf back then, my vision was v narrow. What I can see is very
limited. It’s kinda scary how much time 1 person is willing to commit
to another person and forgetting about other important aspects of life.
Coz when u’re into a r/s, u tend to place the other party in high
significance and forgetting about the rest like your own family, career
and self enrichment.
I’m not saying being attached is bad, but
it’s how u manage it as part of your life instead of letting it be the
core of your life. I let it became a core of my life and in doing so,
many aspects of my life stood still. I was too absorbed by it to think
about other things in life. My world was narrowed and this in turn
caused me to be very immature.
I’ve been single for like 2 yrs
plus now and found myself with an abundance of time to spare. At first
I did not know what to do with the time I had on my hands and wasted it
on gaming and clubbing and slacking around. Guadually, I began to start
reading books. I began reading my 1st love, fantasy books then when I
got the hang of reading, I moved onto topics like financial planning
and books about successful people like Robert Kiyosaki, Micheal Dell
and Bill Gates and Warren Buffet.
After reading those books I
mentioned above, I realised that planning is an extremely intergal part
of one’s life. We should never let chance decide our paths in life or
even our destiny. It’s like a lottery with 1 outta a million odds for
it. Even if we play lottery, we also gotta make sure that the odds will
b of a better rate rather the one mentioned earlier. Hence, I even took
the exams for being a financial advisor. From there, I know roughly
what I need to achieve and the amount of wealth I need to see me till
the end of my days. And the most important lesson I learnt is to delay one’s gratification.
Then
I read about the lives of those successful ppl that I mentioned above.
1 common trait they had is that they were never rich to being with.
Micheal Dell and Bill Gates dropped outta college achieve goals and
dreams that people see as madness and foolishness. But with hard work
and vision, they are now highly successful people in companies that are
considered as movers and shakers. Dell is leading the PC industry with
it direct selling of computer systems and good IT support although it
has dipped in recent years but they are stil the best in the industry.
Microsoft needless to say, everyone is using their Windows OS.
They
din jus sit around and allow their future to happen by chance, they
took action and grabbed what they wanted. Some of these successful ppl
get rich in their free time, not thru work. Can anyone name me a person
who gets as successful as these people just by working? No doubt
managers and snr executives r earning such money, but once they stop
working it means income = $0.
Robert Kiyosaki talked about
passive income in his books and encourages people to find means to
develop their passive income instead of jus relying on earned income.
It’s
really simple, with earned income, once u stop working, u get $0 but
passive income still pays u money. So by using a given gift known as
logic, which one will u work hard for? I know it’s easier said thatn
done but I never said doing it is ez, I gotta admit achieving what
these gentlemen did is like climbing the Everest, but heck they did it,
so being as human as they are why can’t we do it as well?
I’ve
matured much throughout these years and I’ve definitely moved away from
what I was previously. Now I know what exactly I want to achieve and
I’m living by this mindset of delay gratification = greater rewards in
the future. Sad to say many of my peers do not see it dat way. It can’t
helped since the world travels so fast rite now and everyone don’t seem
2 hv patience for anything in life.
I leave this quote as I sign off. Sometimes the fastest way to get things done is by doing it slowly.
So
my first day of work as an admin asst @ Shell House has begun. I’m in
the oil trading department helping out 1 of the trading ops personnel
with her admin hell load. It’s really alot of crap from what I observe.
As usual, never ending emails and constant updating of shipment
details. Like finding out where in the world has the shipment gone to
and blah blah.
Yup, and I’m supposed to help out with dat. But
I’ve not done any work for the first day. The moment I stepped into the
office @ 8am, I was informed that my supervisor only report for work at
8:30. "-_-
That was only the beinning of worse things to come.
When my supervisor greeted me, she told me that I can’t do anything for
the moment coz the IT department has yet to create my acct for
accessing their system. I also do not have a CPU by my desk coz all
staff are issued with laptops. I waited from 8am to 12pm without doin
work. Finally my work station has been set up but my acct has not been
created so I’ve been tasked to relax and surf net with my station till
5pm. I felt like telling her that I’ll like to go home instead of
sitting in the office even if it means I don get paid.
Anyway,
I’ve learned abit about the term, "Oil trading" My office setting is
exactly like a stock brokerage firm except that we’re dealing with
bidding for oil instead of stocks. They sound exactly like stock
brokers. The way they talk and the way they do work. They stare at the
monitor for 80% of the time… Considering the commission they earn,
I’ll say it’s a great job.
Anyway, I’m only working on a temp
basis and I dun tink they have the intention of hiring me for the long
term. So far it’s the best choice I have since it pays rather well for
a temp job and it’s near my sch and home. Can’t complain much even if
the work is crappy.
PS: The gd thing is I dun hv to keep a look out for prices and act like a mad man when there’s any changes.
Attended
a seminar last nite at IPP Wealth Management. I would say it’s very
informative and refreshing. Basically, IPP is a wealth management
company which has been in operation since 1984. What makes it so
different are the missions and goals they have compared to other
insurance companies.
The company placed a significant focus on 3 areas, wealth, health and relationship
upon all their employees. Obviously it means making money with a good
health while having a strong relationship with your family and friends.
And the most impressive thing is that the organization is client
centric. Because wealth management must be done with the client’s needs
and affordability in mind and not of how much commission the advisor
will get in return. Well, it’s not up to me to judge, it for those ppl
who have financial advisor to judge for themselves. How would u feel
when you’ve placed your money and trust into someone who have promised
you that they will go together with you to take care of your wealth
then all of a sudden when some accident happens, you realised that the
person who you placed your money and more importantly your trust into
have left the business? And guess wat, your problem has only just
begun. I’ve seen ppl joining the financial advising industry with the
wrong purpose in mind. They go in for the money not because they wanna
serve ppl. I don’t blame those ppl coz money counts and it applies to
many ppl including me.
Anyway, I’m not here to share abt being a
financial advisor. It’s the meeting up with 1 of the directors that
really made the whole seminar memorable. I only know his name as
Patrick. It was his vision that really impressed me. He has a plan in
mind and he dared to put his plan into action. He input a very strong
culture of being physically healthy besides just making money. He
introduced a weekly exercising regime that involves all the employees.
And the best part? They happen even during office hours. Imagine your
boss saying this to everyone on wednesday @ 3pm, "Hey everyone, time to
pack up and hit the gym"
He also made sure that the people who
join the company are client centric instead of only making money and
leaving the business when you tink you’ve earned enuf. And by doing so,
his employees are really focused in what they are doing and they are
really enjoying doin what they are supposed to.
Well, how many
ppl out there like their jobs? Sure the passion will be there when you
just join the company. But as you get the wonderful and long awaited
pay rise and promotions, you get disillusioned and stressed out and
shagged out and you eventually want out or whatever outs that suit you.
Patrick believes not only having good employees who have the drive and
passion but also the importance of the company doing the pacing with
its employees.
The reality is that all organizations are working
for 1 thing, revenue. Because it’s the only element that keeps the
company afloat and help it progress. But it’s the pace of how you earn
it. Apparently, most companies want their employees to run like a
sprinter. Run at the fastest pace to overtake others and you’re safe to
reach the finish line. But the journey and growth of an organization is
not jus a sprint but it’s a marathon of long distance and you need the
people who can last from beginning to end not just take the lead at the
100m.
Patrick’s vision of an organization is not just the 100m
race but the 42km marathon. And he knows not everyone is born a
marathon runner that’s where the company wil become the pacer to help
its employees along the way. It’s a different management approach
compared to what alot of companies here in Singapore are doing. It’s
can’t b helped since everyone has been instilled with the mentailty of
"kiasu" since birth. So it’s very refreshing to hear and see that a
singaporean dared to execute this plan into a local company. Quite a
visionary I should say.
Ok,
I went for my interview this morning at a IT Company located at
Tampines for the position, Sales & Marketing Executive. The job
scope is manageable and the pay ain’t too bad for a freshie like me
since I’m new into this field. (Can’t ask for more since I’m a noob).
Everything about this job is good except for the fact that it’s an
Indian IT Company, which means most of the staff are not locals, mostly
from Indian where they set up a branch office in Singapore.
The
moment I stepped into the office and I know I’ll have a great deal of
difficulty trying to get used to it. I took a glimpse around the area
and only found 2 chinese dudes. Wat a great shock to me. Man oh man.
Really wonder should I turn down the offer…
When I went thru
the interview I know I’m in for a ride coz of their heavily accented
english. (Oh my GOD! How can I work like this???) I had to ask my
interviewer to repeat almost every questions coz I really cant catch
his words. I could tell he was quite pissed. The 2nd interviewer was a
friendly indian lady but stil her accented english is a real problem to
me. When it was the 3rd interviewer’s turn, I felt like surrendering.
However,
I kinda like the opportunities it presented to me. It’s very
challenging and it sure provides me a great room to learn about market
research and coordination. I’ll stay on just for the chance to learn.
This is a great chance for my to get outta my comfort zone and to
absorb more. Coz I believe a person learn most when they are outta
their comfort zone.
Now I gotta meet out with my frens more often jus to provide the mental support that I need. GOD help me~~~
Just had a celebration for quite a few events. My birthday, my cousin’s (asher) entry of NS and his girlfriend’s (Ester) birthday as well. She only older than me by 2 days. Amazing… And these events took place at downtown east’s chalet. The most heart wrenching thing was after we realised that our unit number had turned out as the top prize winning number in 4D the week b4. WTF!?
Damn, if only we knew, we’ve struck top prize and can even afford to BBQ abalone. And not sliced abalone but the whole chunk of it.
Anyway, back to the chalet, was a pain in the ass trying to overlook all the items like food, utensils, guest list, nv thought I need to do all these things again. But then again I asked for it. 1st of all thanks to all who gave me face and turned up for the event. I sincerely thank you frm the bottom of my heart.
The 1st day was for Ester and Asher. Nothing much to comment on except that Asher got thrashed by me with the creamy cake and whip cream that appeared outta nowhere… (Hehehe) Sorry bro but it was totally necessary since Ester oredi volunteered u for the highlight. In a way, can get u mentally prepared when ur 21st birthday arrives in 7 months time. Only difference is dat I wont b the one thrashing u, I’ll b the clean up squad instead. Promise…
2nd day is for my birthday and my turn 2 b thrashed but dis time it’s from a spray can. I became snow man but not alone, I dragged Belinda along with me. U could hv jus kept urself outta sight but no…. u jus had to gloat at my misfortune. Sorry babe, but I jus had to do it, can’t let my beloved "xiao mei" miss out all the fun.
The most memorable incident was not related to any of the 3 main characters. The ones involved were Sean and Jason. The whole incident goes like this… 5 (Asher, Sean, Jason, Ester, me) of us were drinking a bottle of Vodka, I and Sean drank like 3 quarter, while the other quarter was settled by the other 3. Slightly after an hour, Jason began to act weird. (He really cant drink, he only had a few sip here and there) He took off his top and began to spout nonsense. I wont goto exact details but all I can say is that taking care of a drunkard is a damn chore. Especially when dat drunkard does alot of nonsense and talk alot of crap. Jason almost brought the house down if not for us stopping him. Sean was stil in control of his actions but he hugged the toilet bowl for 3 hours……….. "-_- 1st time I had to take care of drunkards, usually it’s the other way round. Now I know how Qiye felt dat time at Mdm Wongs…
Being at the chalet sure brought back alot of memories during my 21st birthday. Alot of sweet memories… And how time flies, I’m 23 now.
–Success is never forever, failure is never fatal, courage is what counts
This may come as a shock to some ppl but I’ve given up on being a financial adviser. I’ve considered this for some time now. It ain’t what I want as a career.
What exactly do I want? That I have no answer. So wtf am I doing??? So many things out there but I’m sure financial adviser ain’t 1 of them. I wanna do something that has career advancement that can enrich myself with skills and knowledge in specific fields be it marketing, HR, wealth management, etc. Financial adviser only do 1 thing, sell products… Ultimately, they are like salesman. Anyone who can talk well can b a salesman.
Now, I’m considering whether to study full time or work and study simultaneously. 1st choice allows me to study without other distractions while the 2nd choice is a tough path to travel. Work and studies combined is a great killer. Not to mention other issues like family problems and other distractions like work performance.
Need to discuss further with my father on my future. I ought to accept the cruelty or reality soon or I’ll b forever consumed by the flames of failure.
